Category Archives: Infinity Talk

Infinite Date

It really not important I think. But, how fun is it to know that there is August 8th…? It should be written as 8/8 and it’s funny. 

This morning Christ said something like, “it’s your day K…” and I’m just like, “what dude?” Not knowing that he means about the date. I’m pretty sure I remember the day but not exactly the date. Because I don’t really need that. But I do need the day for a reason. LOL

8/8 or August 8 is a date for fun. Some said it a good date for doing a special occasion. For me, I think dinner with friends is important, so I did that. And that’s all. 

Now I’m going to sleep.  

Really.. like I’m not in the mood to write anything anyway. LOL. How stupid is that? 

But doing something for a reason is cool and I like it this way. I think I can just edit this post tomorrow morning just in case i’m talking too much crap at this post. 

And yes, up until now I’m still sober. Idk later.

No.. you don’t have a right to judge me. Because somehow you and I are all the same.

LOL. Cheers!

You Can’t See God, Can You?

Last night i was having a heavy conversation with a friend of mine.
He is way older than me.
And wiser, of course.

But, what he said is illogical for me.

You know that i’m agnostic and i choose it that way.
I believe that there’s GOD. I just don’t believe in such a religion or belief.
I think i’ve said something similar before. But here’s the story.

We’re drinking coffee late night after practice and this conversation start in such a way i can’t think of before.

“In my home area there is tuyul. I do not believe there are still many people who believe in the occult. How can you believe in such a creature that can not be seen?”
(Toyol or Tuyul is a mythical spirit in Malay mythology of South-East Asia, especially in Brunei, Indonesia, Malaysia, Thailand, and Singapore. A person who owns a toyol uses it mainly to steal things from other people, or to do mischief. According to a well-known superstition, if money or jewelry keeps disappearing mysteriously from your house, a toyol might be responsible. One way to ward off a toyol is to place some needles under your money, for toyols are afraid of being hurt by needles. —

And to that statement, I accidentally responded with a sentence that may sound unpleasant for him.
FYI, this person is very religious. He is a very devoted muslims.
I said, “Well then, why do you believe in your God if you can’t see Him?

He said something like it’s totally different and it can’t be put together.

Well, i said it’s not your right to speak such a thing. Because it was said on Holy Qur’an that God create devil and Jin even before He create us, human.
Why don’t you believe that there are such a creature that can’t be seen?
And about occult thing, aren’t all human beings entitled to choose the path they trust themselves?

I never speak about what right or wrong about life, except for myself.

Why Suicide?

Another post about suicide from 2015. Worth to read.


Broken ∞ Infinity

Rangga Arman Kusuma, 14 years old, committed suicide on his own wardrobe, on Wednesday, 14th January.

Suicides in the teenage years is already common. According to psychologist Ratih Ibrahim, the trigger of suicide in this age can be various. “Could be due to a friend, girl/boyfriend, even from the media,” he said when contacted on Sunday, January 18, 2015

But, what in the Hell is suicide?

Suicide is a deliberate act that caused the death of yourself. Suicide is often done as a result of despair, the cause is often associated with mental disorders such as depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, alcohol addiction / alcoholism or drug abuse.
Factors that cause stress include financial difficulties or problems in interpersonal relationships often come into play. Efforts to prevent suicide among others, is the restriction of access to firearms, treating mental illness and drug abuse, as well as…

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Work work work

I was busy at work yesterday, but after I saw my “email” has been replied, i spend some time to do something. 😛

It really has nothing to do with my job and i’m happy.

And hey. This morning, I get a little annoyed by one preggo-mommy that said, “Kerja mulu.” (translate to : always working, in a slightly sneering tone)  LOL

My job is my life. My life is only for job.
Without my job, my life is meaningless.

But sure i still have social life. It’s just not really like yours.

This is how i live btw.
I can sleep all day long if I want to, but it’ll be meaningless. (but sometimes that’s how i made a deal with my depression).
Like when you eat because you have to, but you can choose to not eat because of a reason.

I sleep at 3.45 last night (or morning).
And wake up at 5.30 and go to work at 6.30
If I was correct, lack of sleep can easily start anxiety that lead to depression.
But what if i just can’t sleep?


oh.. and i watch a hockey game last night.
(So yea you know, i had a social life)
I feel bored and think i need some adrenaline. So, i might start to play hockey just for fun. LOL
That’s it for today.
Let’s get back to work.